The man of my life

Hey, its me again. Of course its me, how else would it be?
So I want to tell you a story. I'm not even sure how I feel about that right now. I've got really mixed feelings. I used to write about that on my other blog, but then I had different perspective on that. It was fully of pain.
The story is about the men of my life. A few years ago there was a man really really handsome and I just knew him by sight. But fate so willed that we had a chance to get to know each other. And I can say it had been the best time of my life so far, every single word spoken by him, every smile, kiss. Of course then I didn't know that it would bring me so many sleepless nights, tears.. But it was really worth. For really long time I couldn't think soberly. I mean I couldn't date any other man because I always compared them to this one.. But what changed? Some day early this year I met him and we hadn't been spoken pretty long he told me something that I wasn't expected. He told me that he's expecting a child, a daughter.. I was surprised by my reaction, I took it really well and I'm happy about that. In some way it made me free. Finally I can look at him without desire in my eyes. Talk to him just about life like a good old friends.
And a few weeks ago he get married. I'm really happy for him, I really am.
It's a very general outline of this story. But from all things happening around me this one is the truest and deepest.
Maybe someday I will write something more about that, some details. Actually I started writing a book about  and our first meeting is described  in great detail. But unfortunately I've got only a few chapters. And I haven't been writing for months. Maybe someday I will back to this book and finally finish it and share with you.
E.